Lady Stardust...

I am having a cranky, crappy day. Little sleep and lots of annoying people are contributing to this, but there is one thing that is keeping me from going on a killing spree. That is David Bowie's The Rise and Fall of Ziggy Stardust and the Spiders From Mars album. I've had it on repeat since 8 this morning. I am surprised my coworker isnt going crazy from the repetition at this point. The song Lady Stardust has me all mellow and singing along in between spurts of irritation and foul language. Someone (Damon, I am almost sure) told me that this song is about Marc Bolan from T. Rex.

People stared at the makeup on his face
Laughed at his long black hair, his animal grace
The boy in the bright blue jeans
Jumped onto the stage
And lady stardust sang his songs
Of darkness and disgrace
And he was alright the band was altogether
Yes he was alright the song went on forever
And he was awful nice
Really quite out of sight
And he sang all night long
Femme fatales emerged from the shadows
To watch this creature fair
Boys stood upon their chairs
To make their point of view
I smiled sadly for a love I could not obey
And lady stardust sang his songs
Of darness and dismay
And he was alright the band was altogether
Yes he was alright the song went on forever
And he was awful nice
Really quite paradise
And he sang all night long
Oh how I sighed when they asked if I knew his name
And he was alright the band was altogether
Yes he was alright the song went on forever
And he was awful nice
Really quite paradise
And he sang all night long

For some reason David Bowie's music always gives me a fantastic sense of calm. It may be where it takes my brain. A sort of comfort food for my brains, if you will. *laughs* I'm a nerd, but I'm calm and that sort of rocks. Especially since I was in a fury just minutes ago.

Today has been a lovely day. It started out a little crappy. The other day I ordered a very expensive text book online and they took my money and then sent an email saying they didn’t have the book in stock any longer and were returning my monies. Well today they finally returned it and I went online to order the book from somewhere else and the price of the book had gone up so much that I could no longer afford it. So I was freaking out because the class starts a week from today. So I emailed my Student Advisor and told her the issue and she was all “How about I switch you from Math to Life Drawing?” I quickly looked up the books and the three books for that class together are cheaper than the one for the Math class. How fucked up is that? So I am taking Life Drawing and Visual something or another starting next Thursday. I love art classes so it should be fun. Though I suck at drawing so it may just be an exercise in frustration. BUT I would rather that than math.

Then a friend told me about something that was cool that I am not going to write about here because it isn’t my happy to share, but its really cool and contributes to my happy.

It’s raining really really hard today. I just want to go out and jump in puddles, but its more fun with a friend and I don’t really have any. I do really. I have some of the best friends a girl could ask for, but none of them are in the town I live in…in most cases not even the state and in some cases not even the country.

It’s 15 minutes until I get to go home and that pleases me greatly. I just want to be at home.

Hiccups

Today has been crazy busy, but suddenly it's quiet and I can breathe. The fucked up part of the busy has been that I have had the hiccups for two days and and talking to people is becoming increasingly difficult. I'm in a fairly good mood though. Which is sort of amazing for a busy monday when I has the evil hiccups of doom. I had more to say, but I cant remember what it was, so more later maybe.

zarabella has an emo

Why do we do the things that we do. We make ourselves slaves to our emotions and give the controls to people that don’t want them. We give and we give until we have nothing left and are left wondering how it could have happened. We are deaf to the internal screaming of others. I look around me and I wonder how I got here. How I could have felt so much for so long and suddenly I feel numb. No.. the emotion is hiding behind the numb. I can feel it back there trying to push its way out. If I let it out I will be worthless to the world. I will just scream and never be able to stop. Scream out all of the frustration and sadness and anger.

My hands hurt so badly today. I think one day they will be useless. Along with my eyes and my ears. I will just be this lump who cannot see or hear or feed itself.

I really wanted to be someone you cared about. Maybe even someone you loved. I see now that that won’t happen. I was a silly little girl trying to find her place. I give up. I back off. I don’t believe in love anymore.

It’s raining today. I have been in this horribly sad mind space for the last few days. It’s annoying. I am sick of myself. But I can’t seem to shake this. I’ve cried more in the last couple days than I have in the last month at least.

I really need to find a new job. I’ve been here for going on 3 years and it’s making me insane. I go through periods where I am all right and then this horrible bout of I don’t really give a shit happens. I’m firmly in the middle of one of those and if I am not careful I am going to get fired and then have no choice in the matter. Also, I am taking 5 weeks off of school. I am so burned out that I cant make myself care about that either. The only problem is that in order to stay enrolled I have to take both classes in the second half of the quarter. That is going to suck. One of the classes is Math. I suck at math. I wonder if I can sweet talk my friend Spike into helping me again.

God I’m freezing today. I need to dig out my winter stuffs so I don’t sit here and shiver.

floaty dicks and cereal rapists...a love story

A conversation with Allias on gtalk.

me: yes but
you are talking to me
so its like i am there
poking you
Nicole: Yus
me: poke
Nicole: Only in a non visible sorta way
me: im a ghost
ooooooooowwwwhoooooooooss
thats my ghost sound
Nicole: feels a poke and looks around and screams "OMG OMG OMG OMG I am SOOOOOOOOOO Moving, it is haunted. HALP! HALP! Who do I call? GHOSTBUSTERS!"
me: hahahah shush yous
no GHOSTBUSTERS can save yo ass nao
Nicole: that sounds like a promise.
me: bend ovah babeh
i was just gonna google something and i have completely forgotten what it was
Nicole: Um,Ghost sex? Would that work?
me: i could make various parts of me coporeal Or however dat shit is spelled
Nicole: Hahaha
I visualize a dick like forming out of thin air and chasing me
me: hahahahahah thanks now so am i!
Nicole: Better than a huge vagina tryin to eat me
me: and your hands are all in the air and youre screaming HALP HALP i has a ghost dick!
oh i laff. so so hard
Nicole: I made our ghost dick convo into a notecard labeled wut do Alli and Zara chat about all day?
me: hahahah
Nicole: I need to start a blog of our silly rampages like that one
But people would be like wtf is wrong with you both
Nicole: Homocidal maniacs and closet creeps
Nicole: I meant to say homocidal maniacs and closet cereeps care about what others think, not that those are the people we care about
me: hahahah
Nicole: clarifies
me: you are crackin me up today
Nicole: I am in a mood
A laughin yet emo critical moody mood with like silly on top
me: thats my mood too. it could tip to emo real easy but im not gonna let it.
and my tampon feels like sandpaper
Nicole: Yus that is why we have floating dicks and cereal rapers
me: hahahahahah now i am picture that floating dick raping a bowl of cereal
Nicole: HAhahaha
Geez now me too
me: take it TAKE IT slosh
Nicole: Then he got a fruit loop stuck
me: hahahahah
i has laff tears
Nicole: Fruit loops, it's just not for eating
me: oh i just had a peewee herman laugh
Nicole: I am gunna forever think of fruit loops as th3e cock ring cereal
me: them has to be some serious fruity loops to be a cock ring
Nicole: Or a tiny peenor
me: see i was just picturing said floaty dick with fruit loops stuck all over it
Nicole: Hey they all can't be 12 inches long and sterile
me: yeah but pencil dick would be generous if it could fit in a fruit loop
hahahah i cant believe i just typed that sentence
Nicole: lul
I am tryin to imagine a man with a actual pencil sized dick
me: this is terrible.
im bad bad
Nicole: I dated a guy once who felt like a pencil and looked like one of the big thick novelty pencils, I keep seein that in my head now
Cause even those pencils are not that big you know
He was Tiny
But I learned to fake
me: ive only ever been with my husband and he had a pretty nicely sized cawk
or has since i dont think he is without it
hahah
Nicole: Lul
You are secretly holding it hostage in a jar
I know it
me: hahahah ewww
Nicole: LET MY PEENOR GO!
me: i almost shot diet coke out my nose. evil
Nicole: FREE WILLY!
me: bahahahahahah
Nicole: Omg wouldn't it just stare at you with its one eye?
me: then it would project its voice into my head like the tell tale penis. budub "lemme go." budum "or fuck me"
eewwww
Nicole: Wow A talking penis
I would tell him STF and you might get some
me: jesus christ. i have sliced my hands open 4 times today
Nicole: STFU*
Eck
Not you stfu, the jar penis
me: hahahah i know
hahahah
i'm going to put this conversation on my blog
Nicole: I mean really, i would do a dildo first, cause a talky penis sounds like it would be the whiney est part of a man
Now if it were a talkin hand, you could screw it and I am sure it would only be half as annoying

Whatevs.

It has been a really shitty few days. My mom has been broken down from stress and on medication that doesn’t seem to be helping any. Then she was fired Monday. It’s stressful for both of us because now I am the only one with a job and I don’t make enough money to support us both. Hopefully, she will get unemployment and find another job quick.

I started smoking again. It’s been about a month now. Today I can feel it. I don’t know what I think I am doing. It doesn’t help anything and it fucking stinks. I can’t seem to help myself though. It’s weirdly comforting.

I’m doing this school stuff and I wonder what I was thinking. I don’t feel like I am ever going to get to a point where I can get out of customer service. I don’t feel like I am learning a whole lot either. The class that has taught me the most so far was perspective. And I still can’t draw for shit, but I can make a box that is in perspective. Go me.

I have a full tank of gas and most of a pack of cigarettes and 33$. I wonder how far that would get me. Probably not very far. I couldn’t do that to my mom anyway. I told her I would stick around for a while. I love her, but I would really love to be by myself for a while.

I have listened to the song Remember by Skold so many times in the last couple days that it is firmly wedged in my head. It’s such a good song though. That whole album is really. This line…”I’m tired and I can’t remember…” so stuck in my head.

Today I look at the sky and see images in the clouds. Today I sit and wonder. If I wish hard enough could I create a staircase with my mind and go up and dance with those figures in the clouds? Could I steal the crown of the cloud king? Would he chop off my head? Would he look like David Bowie and sing everything he said?

I sometimes wish I could see through my cat’s eyes. She always looks like she is pondering something interesting. Though at the moment they are all squinty and gooey. My poor fuzzy baby.

I just heard a David Bowie song I don’t think I have ever heard before. It is called The Hearts Filthy Lesson. It is really quite fantastic. It makes me think of someone. A someone who is also rather fantastic. I love falling in love with songs I’ve never heard by old favorites. Though it is a bit disconcerting. It makes me wonder what else I have missed.

The desire to create art is so strong in me today that I have to consciously keep my focus on other things. I am at work, taking a bit of a break, so I thought I would post in my blog. But the art, it calls to me. I have a sketch pad here with a doodle that I started yesterday and I really just want to get lost in it with this beautiful music caressing my brain. I cant, however. There are people here and they would not appreciate my doodling when I am supposed to be working. I want to paint a face. I don’t think that I will have time for that until Saturday. I hope that the inspiration is still there by then. Maybe I can do something late tonight when I am done djing.

Time and again I tell myself…stay clean tonight. Yes, David Bowie some more. I blame Damon. It was perfect for my mood and the afternoon. It makes me think that I might have to play some Bowie for the strippers. That was a funny sentence, but I assure you it makes sense. I am just rambling really now.

I know it's cheesy to post song lyrics.

Ice by Sarah Mclachlan

The ice is thin come on dive in
underneath my lucid skin
the cold is lost, forgotten
Hours pass days pass time stands still
light gets dark and darkness fills
my secret heart forbidden...
I think you worried for me then
the subtle ways that I'd give in but I know
you liked the show
tied down to this bed of shame
you tried to move around the pain but oh
your soul is anchored
The only comfort is the moving of the river
You enter into me, a lie upon your lips
offer what you can, I'll take all that I can get
only a fool's here...
I don't like your tragic sighs
as if your god has passed you by well hey fool
that's your deception
your angels speak with jilted tongues
the serpent's tale has come undone you have no
strength to squander
The only comfort is the moving of the river
You enter into me, a lie upon your lips
offer what you can, I'll take all that I can get
only a fool's here to stay
only a fool's here to stay
only a fool's here...

Songs about heat and lust...

The heat presses against me today. It makes me aware of my clothes and my body in ways I am generally not aware of. It makes my lips and fingertips sensitive. Eating a pretzel becomes an erotic experience. Everybody seems to be moving slower today. We are not used to the air being so heavy. I blame the heat, but I have been in a state for several days now. Breath slightly heavy, nipples hard, bottom lip clamped between teeth.

I can’t concentrate. I should be working, but all I can think about is the heat. I am listening to some music made by a band who’s singer is a guy I know, sort of.. ahahah. It’s really good stuff. Sins of Lust is the name of the band. It’s not really helping my state of mind however. It’s good music that I could see moving against another body to.

A breeze just came in through the window. It was cool and lovely and yet still felt like a caress. I am in a bad way. * laughs*

I really don't know what to say...

Lately, I have been in this state of sadness. I have cried my rivers of tears and brought people down with me. I am tired of the sad and that is making me angry. So from the sad emerges the bitch. The bitch is not interested in people. I am just wanting to be alone with my rage and maybe create some art. I say that, but at the same time I feel lonely. Stupid complex emotions.

The Dresden Dolls...oh how i loves them

"Good Day"

So you don't want to hear about my good song?
And you don't want to hear about how i am getting on
With all the things that i can get done
The sun is in the sky & i am by my lonesome
So you don't want to hear about my good day?
You have better things to do than to hear me say

God its been a lovely day! everything's been going my way
I took out the trash today and i'm on fire...

So you don't want to hear about my good friends?
You don't have the guts to take the truth or consequence
Success is in the eye of the beholder
And its looking even better over your cold shoulder

I'm not suggesting you get to line me up for questioning
But Jesus think about the bridges you are burning
And i'm betting
That even though you knew it from the start
You'd rather be a bitch than be an ordinary broken heart

So go ahead and talk about your bad day...
I want all the details of the pain and misery
That you are inflicting on the others
I consider them my sisters and I want their numbers

God its been a lovely day! everything's been going my way
I took up croquet today and i'm on fire

I picked up the pieces of my broken ego
I have finally made my peace as far as you and me go
But i'd love to have you up to see the place
& i'd like to do more than survive i'd like to rub it in your face.....

Hey! its been a lovely day! everything's been going my way
I had so much fun today and i'm on fire
God it's been a lovely day everything's been going my way
Ever since you went away hey i'm on fire.....
I'm on fire...
I'm on fire...
So you don't want to hear about my good day?

random pig lyrics...for muh arts

Absolved in absinthes eye
My crippled crew in carnage cry
One more drink or surely die
Now steer me through that needle's eye

The Beginning is the end is the beginning...

My dear friend Sorrow sent me this song today by the Smashing Pumpkins. It brings to mind superheros like Batman, but it also brings Sorrow to mind. It's a fantastically emotional song.

Send a heartbeat to
The void that cries through you
Relive the pictures that have come to pass
For now we stand alone
The world is lost and blown
And we are flesh and blood disintegrate
With no more to hate

Is it bright where you are
Have the people changed
Does it make you happy you're so strange
And in your darkest hour
I hold secrets flame
We can watch the world devoured in it's pain

Delivered from the blast
The last of a line of lasts
The pale princess of a palace cracked
And now the kingdom comes
Crashing down undone
And I am a master of a nothing place
Of recoil and grace

Is it bright where you are
Have the people changed
Does it make you happy you're so strange
And in your darkest hour
I hold secrets flame
We can watch the world devoured in it's pain

Time has stopped before us
The sky cannot ignore us
No one can separate us
For we are all that is left
The echo bounces off me
The shadow lost beside me
There's no more need to pretend
Cause now I can begin again

Is it bright where you are
Have the people changed
Does it make you happy you're so strange
And in your darkest hour
I hold secrets flame
We can watch the world devoured in it's pain
Strange
Strange
Strange

The Killing Moon

Echo & The Bunnymen

Under blue moon I saw you
So soon you'll take me
Up in your arms
Too late to beg you or cancel it
Though I know it must be the killing time
Unwillingly mine


Fate
Up against your will
Through the thick and thin
He will wait until
You give yourself to him


In starlit nights I saw you
So cruelly you kissed me
Your lips a magic world
Your sky all hung with jewels
The killing moon
Will come too soon


Fate
Up against your will
Through the thick and thin
He will wait until
You give yourself to him


Under blue moon I saw you
So soon you'll take me
Up in your arms
Too late to beg you or cancel it
Though I know it must be the killing time
Unwillingly mine


Fate
Up against your will
Through the thick and thin
He will wait until
You give yourself to him

The Man Who Cried

Last night I didn't feel like going to bed yet and it was about 11pm, so I decided to watch one of the movies I got from netflix. The man who cried was about an hour and forty minutes long so it was perfect. I sat in the dark and watched this movie and cried pretty much the whole time. The story is good. I enjoyed the actors, but it was the music that murdered me. Through the entire thing, I was spellbound. If I had more than 11$ at the moment the soundtrack would be mine.

PS Johnny Depp is in the movie and he says maybe 4 full sentences. But he stands there and looks pretty a lot, which is okay with me too. I love Cate Blanchett in this too.

Equilibrium

Equilibrium is a movie starring the beautiful Christian Bale. It was so good that i had to watch it twice back to back. It's set in a future where human emotion is outlawed. People are given drugs to make them not feel. There are people who oppose this and they are the outlaws. Then there are the Cleric. They are specially trained to find and eradicate these outlaws. Christian Bale plays one of these clerics who accidentally goes off his meds and starts to feel. The story is pretty great and the acting is wonderful and if you are a fan of action, there are some pretty kick ass action sequences as well.

Don't judge the movie by this picture *laughs*

My next netflix movies are going to be PS I Love You and The Man who Cried. I will let you know how they are.

best caption evah

ACUTE NOSE!


more cat pictures

Awake at 1:30am, reading poetry...

When I Too Long Have Looked Upon Your Face

WHEN I too long have looked upon your face,
Wherein for me a brightness unobscured
Save by the mists of brightness has its place,
And terrible beauty not to be endured,
I turn away reluctant from your light,
And stand irresolute, a mind undone,
A silly, dazzled thing deprived of sight
From having looked too long upon the sun.
Then is my daily life a narrow room
In which a little while, uncertainly,
Surrounded by impenetrable gloom,
Among familiar things grown strange to me
Making my way, I pause, and feel, and hark,
Till I become accustomed to the dark.

Edna St. Vincent Millay

another by Edna St. Vincent Millay

I think I should have loved you presently

I THINK I should have loved you presently,
And given in earnest words I flung in jest;
And lifted honest eyes for you to see,
And caught your hand against my cheek and breast;
And all my pretty follies flung aside
That won you to me, and beneath your gaze,
Naked of reticence and shorn of pride,
Spread like a chart my little wicked ways.
I, that had been to you, had you remained,
But one more waking from a recurrent dream,
Cherish no less the certain stakes I gained,
And walk your memory's halls, austere, supreme,
A ghost in marble of a girl you knew
Who would have loved you in a day or two.

What lips my lips have kissed, and where, and why (Sonnet XLIII)

by Edna St. Vincent Millay

What lips my lips have kissed, and where, and why,
I have forgotten, and what arms have lain
Under my head till morning; but the rain
Is full of ghosts tonight, that tap and sigh
Upon the glass and listen for reply,
And in my heart there stirs a quiet pain
For unremembered lads that not again
Will turn to me at midnight with a cry.
Thus in winter stands the lonely tree,
Nor knows what birds have vanished one by one,
Yet knows its boughs more silent than before:
I cannot say what loves have come and gone,
I only know that summer sang in me
A little while, that in me sings no more.

A friend sent this to me...

Funeral Blues


Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He Is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West.
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever; I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.


~W.H. Auden

A Dream

In visions of the dark night
I have dreamed of joy departed-
But a waking dream of life and light
Hath left me broken-hearted.

Ah! what is not a dream by day
To him whose eyes are cast
On things around him with a ray
Turned back upon the past?

That holy dream- that holy dream,
While all the world were chiding,
Hath cheered me as a lovely beam
A lonely spirit guiding.

What though that light, thro' storm and night,
So trembled from afar-
What could there be more purely bright
In Truth's day-star?

Edgar Allen Poe

So I read this guys blog...

He is often obscene, always funny or brilliant... He is often poetic and I have to share on of his. This was from his blog. I am not sure if he wrote it, but I think he did. It moved me.

Extinguished
Just dig up my embers.


The skies are made for this room, this limitless attraction. I'm standing in you and I've beaten these walls relentlessly. If the heat from the fire couldn't burn through that veil of pain you wore with such style, then what good was the fire?
A thousand hearts burned for you, my passion, my muse.

I keep forgetting to blog...

I can't believe how long its been since I have written here. I am getting lazy in my old age. I come here everyday so that I can look at other peoples blogs and I think "Eh, I'll blog tomorrow." 16 days later, here I am. I have been pretty busy lately. I have been djing 5 days a week for the last couple of weeks. As much as I love it, I get sort of burned out. I decided to take monday off this week from djing in extasia and then filled in at Lounge of Dreams. It's always fun to dj at Lounge of Dreams. There are always a lot of people and it's just a fantastic atmosphere. I was going somewhere with this post, but I have quite forgotten where. So, I will end it for now and when i remember where I was going i will let you know.

Okay I'm bored...

1. Go to www.photobucket.com (don’t sign in)
2. Type in your answer to the question in the search box.
3. Use only the first page to look for the appropriate answer.
4. Copy the HTML and paste under the question for the answer.

1. What is your name?


2. Relationship status


3. Favorite Color


4. What are you listening to right now?


5. Favorite Movie


6.Where is your dream vacation?


7. What is your favorite dessert?


8. One word to describe yourself...


9. Your eye color is?


10. The last book you read...


11. Night or Day?


12. Oranges or apples?


13. Chocolate or vanilla?

Bored...

I am sitting at work and i should be working, but I cant concentrate on anything for very long. So i thought that i would blog a little. I was looking at the fashion planet feed and it reminded me of something that i wanted to discuss. I really really really really hate holidays in SL. Everybody and there fucking brother decide they need to make an outfit for the holiday. So it seems like there is nothing but holiday themed outfits for the month leading up to the damn holiday. And what kind of holiday is St. Patricks Day anyway? No one really knows what its about. They just wear green and say "Kiss me I'm Irish" and pinch each other on the ass when they forget to wear green.

Lately, I really really have the urge to travel. I want to leave the United States behind for awhile. I have been telling people lately that I am going to move to Norway. It just seems like a pleasant place to be. I am sort of obsessed with the UK lately too. British accents, scottish highlands and irish eyes a shining...oh my. I'm a nerd. heh.

Sick and annoyed.

So I have been sick the last week or so and I havent felt like making any new pictures to post. I have shopped as usual. I can't help myself there. I have a bitch. I was looking through the forums and ran across this ad from Digital Knickers. It was for Chained Silk. The av in the ad was wearing nothing but jewelry and these fantastic panties. They look prim. Anyway, there is nothing anywhere on the ad (that i saw) saying what was included. So I went and bought it. It was something like 500L$. To my annoyance, the panties did not come with it. That is what made me want to purchase it to begin with. I think that if you are going to have an ad and wear in that ad something someone could possibly want, you need to state what is or is not included in that ad. That shit just annoys me. /End Rant.

I just cant stop myself...

Here I am again. Posting pictures of me on the internet. I cant help myself. The first outfit is a fun sort of 80's retro tshirt dress and leg warmers. Who can resist?
The dress is from this great shop called Emery. I bought 3 dresses there and you will see the other two before I am done posting my favorite outfits. The dress is called 512 Street. The legwarmers are from *Shop Seu*. This is another of my favorite stores. They have a bunch of great tights and a few dresses and some cute hair. The legwarmers are called kushukushu kutsushita. I have this love of little flat ballet type shoes. I have about 20 pairs of the damn things. These ones are by Lycee. They are called peko and they come in several different colors.

The middle outfit is a serious mishmash. The top is from kurotsubaki. It's got prim sleeves, but I really just like it by itself. It's called short knit cardigan in brown. The skirt is by Canimal and as you all my know by now, I love canimal. This is the patch skirt. It rocks. The socks i got in this little shop I stumbled upon whilst wandering around some sim shopping somewhere else. It's called -corduroy-. They sell a bunch of furniture and stuff like that and a bunch of cute socks. These are called Catero's leggings. Im all about stripy socks. Okay...these boots. I love love love these boots. they are called Antique boots in brown (I also have them in black). For awhile these were the only shoes i would wear. I have some large calves for an avatar. It is because I have a large ass and to look alright you have to have nice sized thighs, which in turn gives you large calves. These are the ONLY boots I have not had to do but minor editing and that was mostly position. I got them at a place called ::69::. They have a bunch of great shoes and jewelry. Fantastic fantastic stuff!

This last outfit is totally my guilty pleasure. I feel weird going out of my house dressed like this. It so isnt me. But I really really love it. The texture of the dress is so supple and beautiful it's like you can reach right out and touch it. And it looks like it would feel soft, silky. The dress is called Minidress Trinity Silver. I got the shoes in the same shop. They are PlatformHighHeels in white. They do have them in silver, but its a darker silver and these look better. I got both of these wonderful things at a shop called Kitties Lair. They have some fantastic sculpted shoes and boots and great, what i call, stripper clothes. Very worth your time. All of these places.

The hair from left to right is Missy by Truth, Dafnie by Here Comes Trouble or HCT, and one of the best dollarbys I have ever come across, Phoebe by ETD. I got it at Hairspray, I am not sure if ETD is open yet. I have heard rumors that they are. I will check it out soon.

Alright, my lovelies...that is it for me. I am off to do some math, which has become the bane of my existence. I have even dreamed of it. BOOOO!

My favorite outfits continued...

I love Canimal. I have loved her clothes since i was a wee newb. I have tons and tons of her older stuff. The other day I picked up here Streetwear shorts/mini and I freaking love it. It comes in 3 colors, but I wear the black.

The three outfits here include this skirt. The outfit to the left includes the hood jacket from *DP*YumYum (or Double Paradox). I freaking love this. This little store needs way more coverage. They have some great great stuff. Check out the makers picks...she has several locations.
I have to say, I have this love of tube socks. I always have really. Honestly though, the like of them became love when i would watch my exboyfriend and still bestest friend walk around in his plaid boxers, tube socks and combat boots. yum! So the tube socks come from Sh*t Happens. The hat/hair is something i picked up yesterday in the wee hours of the morning and I simply love it. It's called Divinci Load in licorice and its from Gritty Kitty. Last but oh so not least...the shoes. I saw these on a girl i know in passing and i demanded she tell me where she got them. They are Super Sneaks Platform Hi-Hi tops by MK Fashions. These make me tingle in places best not mentioned in a public forum. They are color change. So one pair is really like 8 or something. So freaking fantastic.

The middle outfit is so much fun i cant stand it. Periodically I get in the mood for bright colors and prints and whatnot. I am smack in the middle of one of those moods. The hair is from Kin. She rocks my socks. I have tons and tons of her hair. It is well made and inexpensive. This one is called Nyoko. I got it in white and colored parts of it red. I also got it in black.

The top and necklace are also from Canimal (see link above). She is definitely rocking my socks. I love the colors. The strawberry pants I got way before I even saw the top from Canimal. I went on a crazy shopping spree at Cotton Candy and got these at miw. (the link is for their bigger store. they are worth checking out.) They are called Juicy Strawberry Leggings and they come in 3 colors. They also come in pants or underpants layer for each color. that kicks ass. And then again there are the Hi-Hi Tops by MK Fashions (see above).

Canimal seems to be the main theme of this picture. The last outfit is helping cure my obsession with yellow. If not cure, at least sooth. The top is the Mmmm lemon! top from Canimal.

If you haven't seen these shoes by now, you havent been paying attention. They are everywhere. I am not immune. They are the amazing Chichi pumps by Maitreya. This is the second time i bought them in this color. The yellow is fantastic and the shoe itself... Let's just say i screamed like a little girl when I saw them. I went right out and bought them and crashed about 3 minutes later and lost them and the slinky stilettos i also bought in yellow at the same time. I was very sad and it was days before I went and bought them again. I am told i should have gone to the designer, but I am weird and shy sometimes, so I just bought them again. They are glorious as is just about everything for sale at Maitreya.

The hair is from a designer of hairs i am really starting to like. This is Missy by Truth. My friend and I went to his birthday party or something and that was my first look at his stuff. Great hair. Lots of clothes that arent my style really, but they look nicely made.

And before I shut the hell up, I realized I didnt mention the ring. This is also a Canimal item and i this its the best thing ever. It's a little frogs head. She has a bunch of different animals, but I loved the little frog.

Well that is all for now. This is a long ass post hahahah. Be well!

More! I am picture happy...!

This outfit is called Darkest Night. It was also created by my dearest Noirran and sold at Subtle Submission. It comes with a shirt layer and Noir's world famous fishnets. I am loving bright colored tights at the moment though so here I am wearing knit tights in tarcois from Petit Ange. The necklace I am wearing is the best freebie i have ever gotten I think. It was a valentines freebie from Alienbear Design.
I am going to do more and more. I am enjoying the heck outta this for some reason.

Ps the hair is called antie and it's by Truth.

Some more pictures of me!

Here is another set of my favorite outfits. They are made by Noirran and sold at Subtle Submission. The outfit is called Rattle and Hum and comes in the colors shown. Sexy and retro. Go buy them!

Ps the hair is called kitten with a whip and its by Ingenue.

My favorite outfits.

I'm really a vain creature and enjoyed seeing pictures of my posted on here so I decided that I am going to do some more. I have decided that I am going to do some pics wearing some of my favorite outfits. I have started with a designer near and dear to my heart. Ms. Noirran Marx. She rocks a sexy dress. Latex...fanfuckingtastic. So here is Kinky Devil, Kinky Candy and Kinky Angel. I love them. I look fantastic in them. You should go buy them at Noirran's store, Subtle Submission.

Oh..the hair is by Cake, the skins on the right and left are Nomine, the skin in the middle is Another Fundraiser skin by *Nuclear Boutique*, and boots are by Minx.

Okay I am super bored so i am gonna put some pictures up. I love this top. I have it in silver too. It's from Mimikri hot couture. They have some fantastic things there, but this top is my favorite. The skirt is by Kyoot Army. It's the Dead Naga Mini. Freaking fantastic babies. The kick ass fishnets were made by my sweet Noirran Marx, who makes the best fishnets in all of SL. Let's see. The neko skin is by Nomine. It's simply lovely. The hair is by deviant kitties...It's called Avril.
I'm gonna post this and see how it works.

I'm really not good at this blogging stuff. I have been running around like a chicken lately trying to come up with things to fill my time and distract me from my mental issues. *laughs* I'm an emo bitch sometimes. My friend Rance gave me this great song that i cant stop listening to. It's a cover of the song I'm Real. Originally done by JLo and Ja Rule, it was fantastically covered by Lovage. With Mike Patton singing JLo's part...what could be better?!

I have 34 minutes until this day is over. I actually called in sick this morning due to a doozy of a headache, but was not to gently reminded that it's month end. I came in and did month end, and my head still feels like its going to fall the fuck off. Pardon my language. Pain makes me cuss. Well, being conscious makes me cuss, but I try not to do it in a public forum usually.

Well I am going to go distract myself for a half an hour by trying to do something constructive. Be well my lovahs and I will try to blog again soon. I want to add some pretty pictures to show you. Well...the two that actually read this have already seen them, but if anyone should happen to stumble upon me, I want you to have something to look at.

Apparently I can shut up...

Holy Moly! It's been a few weeks since I posted here. I am a bad bad blogger. A lot has gone on since I last blogged. I've been djing like a mad woman. I fell in love with a new club and sim. The club, Umbra Penumbra, is the best club ever. The owner Violet has collected a group of the most kick ass dj's ever. Myself included! *laughs* I'm a nerd. The sim is called Atrocity (two sims actually) and it's a fantastic urban build. Again, Violet has done an amazing job creating a place that people want to be. There is a group of people that live there that are funny and fun and crazy. I love being there, so much in fact I rented a little apartment. I like to get on my motorcycle and ride around the neighborhood and see what everyone is up to. My neighbors, Tattoo and lizzy, often have chairs out and a group of people congregated for conversations. Good times, good times. I hope everyone had a happy new year! I know I did. I spent new years eve djing at Umbra. I brought in the central and pacific new year. Before my set, Temple Oe rocked people with a nice punk set. I even got a new years kiss! Hot enough to melt my prim panties (if i wore panties), but I'm not gonna say who. A girl has to have her secrets. Also, the two people that read this blog already know. *laughs and laughs* Be well my lovelies. I will try to jazz this blog up soon.